SHRINK TOLD ME

(album: BUT FOR NOW LEAVE ME ALONE - 2022)

I'm feeling like dying
On this filthy bed
For all the bad bad sins
That I should repent
So I could get to turn up
With the dead presidents
Heaven or hell, I pick
And choose my residence
Now I don't mind if this
Moment's really the death of me
As long as I can rest in peace
With you next to me
Slow dancing in a burning room
Inside of our tomb
Body moving and grooving
Like we on ecstasy
Wait, hol' up
Why you leaving
So early in the morning?
Did I ask too many questions?
Push you right into a corner?
I'm sorta kind a obsessive
But it's only 'cause I love you
Please don't find it disturbing
That I sprayed all your perfume
In my room, in my toilet, TMI
Did I spoil it?

My shrink told me
That too much honesty's a poison
She also told me
That my mind's a big prison
With no light passing an opaque prism
Broken glasses in my head
Living like I'm dead
My affection seems to offend
Every one of my friends
My shrink told me
My last hope's to off it
My shrink told me
My last hope's to off it

I think I finally figured out
The reason why you left me
It's all
Because I tried to love you
When I wasn't ready
I mean how the hell could I even?
I hate myself
Sorry for crying but girl
You don't know the shame I felt
You keep on making comparisons
With twisted narratives
But I still think you're beautiful
I must be an appearancist
Now I know why god's been silent
I swear it cut me deeper
Than domestic violence
Yeah, I get it, now I get it
I'm hard to love
But between us
There's something
That's apart from lust
Give it time, and I think
You'll understand me
Oh, you're leaving?
Now wait, what does that mean?
Voice in my head sounds
Like white noises

My shrink told me that too much
Honesty's a poison
She also told me
That my mind's a big prison
With no light passing an opaque prism
Broken glasses in my head
Living like I'm dead
My affection seems to offend
Every one of my friends
My shrink told me
My last hope's to off it
My shrink told me
My last hope's to off it