Not Just Breathing

(album: Dispose - 2018)

I was never clear before, I lost myself and you were weak
Sorry but I must inform the others on intentions that you seek
How do I choose a side?
I'm just trying, I'm just fighting to say

I'm alive
I'm alive
And not just breathing

She only cares about the way she looks
Can't think for herself she's just a frame
A body dwelling on this earth
A user of the desperate and the vain
Maybe there's someone out there
Who's good with speaking to a blank stare
I know I'm preaching to a lost cause but at least I know

I'm alive
I'm alive
And not just breathing

Stay away from me
Stay away from me

I'm not afraid to speak my mind and throw this life away
I've been enslaved, and years of wasting time made me this way
No it won't get better, we'll just drift apart
And when you do start trying I hope you're reminded

I'm alive
I'm alive
And not just breathing

Time will tell but I wait patiently
There's not a single string attached to you that I can't see
It's like the longer I wait the more you disintegrate
There's not a moment I don't hope for you but I can't wait

Time will tell but I wait patiently
There's not a single string attached to you that I can't see
It's like the longer I wait the more you disintegrate
There's not a moment I don't hope for you but I can't wait

Stay away from me
Stay away from me

I'm alive
I'm alive
And not just breathing