One Last Time

(album: Dispose - 2018)

Waking up on the floor
With no one else in the room
I never felt like this before
I just hope I'm leaving soon

And if tomorrow I don't wake up
Just know I really tried
To make the best of your forgiveness

Tell me one last time
How I never tried

Was so close to breaking through last time
Thought that I'd be sheltered
By nothingness
By the lack of consciousness

But I lay here awake
Too afraid to dream
Cause if I might have to face myself
I'll buckle at my knees

Tell me one last time
How I never tried

I've seen the light
But never felt this close
Pushed my pain aside
Cause I could never give it to those

Cause I never see the point in sharing defeat
Displaying my debts to the world
I just live in repeat, vacant and desperate

Tell me one last time
How I never tried

And if tomorrow I don't wake up
Just know I really tried
To make the best of your forgiveness
And tell my brother he'll be fine