I Always Wanted To Leave

(album: Dispose - 2018)

I always wanted to leave
I'm just so sick of how
You just invested in me
So now I gotta find the best way out
(I always wanted to leave)

Too many days that I've wasted
Say that I'm abrasive, complacent
Got you moving back and you can't face it
Some days I wish that both my lungs would cave
Fall asleep and never wake so that my words could breathe
Spare me all your insecurities
I've got my own but I don't flaunt 'em so religiously
Why do I keep giving time away
Guess I just have to say

I always wanted to leave
I'm just so sick of how
You just invested in me
So now I gotta find my own way now
(I always wanted to leave)

I guess it's a shame
I'm so damn destructive
And you're so reluctant to mean what you say
The way you act so abused
The things you confuse
You know I always wanted to leave

"Hello...
You can sing, I'm here
And I love you more than anyone or anything
With all my heart."

I always wanted to leave
(I always wanted to leave)
I'm just so sick of how
You cut the deepest in me
Go find another wrist to leech from now
I always wanted to leave
Yeah, yeah
Oh, oh, oh yeah
Yeah, yeah
(I always wanted to leave)
Yeah
I always wanted to leave