Ready To Leave

(album: I Am Not Them - 2006)

It takes a real man to look in the mirror
Recognize his flaws, accept his flaws
And then change his flaws, yo

Self-centered, chauvinistic
Wealth hindered, most statistic
A few truthful labels accepting my soul [?]
I've fornicated, not mourned over hatred
Knew I was doing wrong and I swore it was greatness
[?] many people for the sake of my own
Robbed and stolen not even for the sake of my home
I am reckless, violent, sexist, silent
A crash course collision with no source of vision
An unfaithful male, unfocused father
Ungrateful tales of hopeless [?]
A mishap birthplace, miss that worst case
Worst day of my life every year is my birthday
I can't even kiss my chick the same
I can't even grip her hips the same
But God is listening and I ask Him to change me now
And if not that, then take me now

[Macho:]
I'm ready to leave
My life ain't worth living [?] existing
This place where I was trusted 'cause I been doing wrong
My girl, my fam, my friends, sold them all out for money
Can't look in the mirror no more for fear of what I got in store

[Propaganda:]
I knew she was married, knew better
Knew other women, news is I just became what I refused to be
I'll spare you the details and cut to the conclusion
Ran out of excuses, can't use "I'm only human"
I tried to fight it like choice was a factor
But you can't put a band-aid on cancer
Wrong answer and life just proved it
Ain't never let a tool click
But been so judgmental on souls I've left bruises
Earned my position of man on the third cross
I say I'm through lying but call me on it, I'll deny it
Shattered dreams and promises, a closed-minded hypocrite
All the while standing in the pulpit

[Macho:]
I'm ready to leave
My life ain't worth living [?] existing
This place where I was trusted 'cause I been doing wrong
My girl, my fam, my friends, sold them all out for money
Can't look in the mirror no more for fear of what I got in store

1989, heavenly light shine
Revelation on my mind of thirteen years
And though I had preludes to the truth
Before with my knees on the floor
Tears on my eyes, it's never been this clear
And these pages of life turned
I succeed, I feel like it burned
I fall short, I grow, and I learn
It all leads to the present day
Presently I hesitantly engage in heavenly activities
I can't remember last time I prayed for real
Not just catchy phrases that my mind can spill at will
I'm a crafty cat skilled in making people feel
And what's crazy, I mean, so amazing
Is that I can change this in the blink of an eye
I could pick up my [?] book, read in silence and talk
Rededicate my heart, that's the reason that Christ died
But still I choose to lose myself in this endless night
So do I really wanna change my life?

I'm ready to leave
My life ain't worth living [?] existing
This place where I was trusted 'cause I been doing wrong
My girl, my fam, my friends, sold them all out for money
Can't look in the mirror no more for fear of what I got in store

[Propaganda:]
Concept driven, bomb threat killing
Insight for [?] rhyming nicer
Bring your best, I bet that fool's a biter
Sound so similar, y'all is immature
Left to my own, I learned to own my own
Time signature, perfect picture
Came to get your hands up
Creative minds everywhere stand up