These Days

(album: Voice Memos - 2019)

These days
Nothing matters when I look into your face
Nothing in my past is a mistake
If it led me to this motherfuckin place
Yeah
These days
These days I been feeling free
Drowned all of my demons in my sea
Rowboat never hits the shore
But I don't think I want to anymore

I'm feeling freer now
They said it gets better I see it now
She took my demons out
They talk about love I believe it now

I was feeling lost so long with so many days gone
Too many to even count
They never told me how easy it was to feel beaten when off of the beaten route
I thought that life was alone with ice to my bones and nothing I could try
I started rocking designer but found out that it was not something I could buy
Too many hours I spent dwelling on the good times
While the clocks' hands waving back at me like goodbye

Treat this like eulogy, I ain't making rap songs
Yeah I cum fast but this music gonna last long
I been too concerned with what they writing on my new post
Gotta start to think bout what they writing on my tombstone
I feel like the emperor I went and copped some new clothes
But they seeing through me every second like a hublot
Put that shit aside I cannot live just for a replay
Ever since you came into my life you helped me see straight


These days
Nothing matters when I look into your face
Nothing in my past is a mistake
If it led me to this motherfuckin place
Yeah
These days
These days I been feeling free
Drowned all of my demons in my sea
Rowboat never hits the shore
But I don't think I want to anymore

I used to make love songs when I was alone
Just to pretend to feel how I do now
Thank god I with you now
Thank god I'm with you now
Ohhhh
I just wanna make you proud
I just wanna make you proud

These days
I may regret what I say but never how I feel
I almost cried when I realized that everything was real
When the brain can't articulate feelings in words they just come out in tears
No matter what happens I hope that you know I'll forever be here

I was wrong about my song
"The man on my left shoulder"
Cause he's been gone ever since you've called
So I'll admit it was not true
You're the reason I got through
I knew it was love when I knew I'd feel lost if I ever lost you

That's why when you believe in me
I can't describe what that means to me
You help me see what I can't see in me
Easily I need to be between your arms
Let's make this our secret song
But I can't keep a secret when I feel I need to scream it all
Can't even fall, I can't leave it all in the dust
Because no matter what I fear that it's never gone be enough
To repay for all of the trust and the days I crawled in the rough
Guess it made for a better story, was making all of it up and then it came true

You help me hope when I'm faithless
Add a scope when I'm aimless
Help me smile when I faceless
Help me feel when I'm numb
Help me hide when there's nowhere left to run

These days
I may regret what I say but never how I feel
I almost cried when I realized that everything was real
When the brain can't articulate feelings in words they just come out in tears
No matter what happens I hope that you know I'll forever be here