Heavier

(album: To Better Days - 2020)

No doubt I've done this to myself
The more you know
The more you know
And I just can't quit if you couldn't tell
I've seen it all
I've seen it all
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest

Am I a fake?
Am I a fraud?
And is it worth losing you for?
Another pain
I can't ignore
Another morning on the floor
I take the blame
I wanna change
But I can't settle the score
Now I'm a slave to better days
And I'm not willing anymore

I had a dream that I was drowning everyone I've ever loved

I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest

Cold water running down my face
Just let it go
Just let it go
But there is no mending what I can't replace
I should've known
I should've known

Am I a fake?
Am I a fraud?
And am I worth losing you for?
Now I'm gutted to the core
Like I've never been before

I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest

Now it's sinking in
Thick skin is wearing thin
Out of my mind
And it won't come as any surprise
And I've paid for it this time

I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest

I'm feeling
I'm feeling
I'm feeling heavier
I'm feeling
I'm feeling
I'm feeling heavier