Orchid

(album: I Couldn't Be Weaker - 2016)

I don't want to stay another day
When I know you're at home all alone in disarray
With a mind that refuses to communicate
I don't want to feel anything
If it's not the embrace of your warmth when you're near me
But you're colder now these days

You keep your head locked away
Your worries to yourself
But how am I supposed to help
To pull you up from your inner hell?
I see your hands and they're shaking
Why are they shaking?
Can't stop them from shaking

I hope you never come to realize I'm talking about you
The four years we've been through
And I miss you more and more
The calming thought of you smiling
Is what I'd love to wake up to
But I never see that anymore

The pills go easier with water
Your mind can't take the weight of the world again
And it pains me to know
That all I can really do is hope and wait
I see your hands and they're shaking
(Why are they?)

I hope you never come to realize I'm talking about you
The four years we've been through
And I miss you more and more
The calming thought of you smiling
Is what I'd love to wake up to
But I never see that anymore

I hope you never come to realize I'm talking about you
But if you were to
Just know I'm happy that I'm yours

I'm so sorry that your mind hasn't come around
Leaving you digging six feet under the ground
I wish I knew a better way
I wish I knew the words to say

Just know I have enough faith for the both of us
Hold your head up high
Please don't drown yourself tonight
I'll take you home, warm you up, show you a different light
I swear to God, you'll see another night
I'm the furthest from fine
I need you by my side