In It For The Pleasure

(album: Big Colors - 2021)

Operator's on the phone, says I can't be trusted
That's why you left me alone, it was broken, now it's busted
A little sunshine would do but outside it's disgusting
It's barely making a sound, my heart is beating so loud

I feel the sinking in my bones, I feel the pressure
Were you in it for the love, or were you
Were you in it for the pleasure?

It's late July and the sky is so grey
Everyone's in bed, for a month in LA
The house is so quiet, it's barely making a sound
Hands are shaking, my heart is beating so loud

I feel this aching in my bones, I feel the pressure
Were you in it for the love, or was it a game?
Were you just in it for the pleasure?

I dive into the pool, but the pool was empty
There ain't no water now. My bones feel like an ash cloud
All the minuses and pluses, I try to write them down
It doesn't matter now, my heart is beating so loud

I feel this aching in my bones, I feel the pressure
Were you in it for the love, or were you
Were you just in it for the pleasure?

I lie to myself so I can stay sane
A list of scratched out numbers next to names
And I'm running out of space
And it goes on forever

I feel the pain, I feel the pressure
What was it anyway? Do you remember my name?
Or was it just a game? Was it just a game?
Were you just in it for the pleasure?