Forever Heavy

(album: B-Sides & Rarities Vol.2 [2009-2013] - 2013)

In a field
Forever
In the sun
You're heavy
Chewing gum
Forever
In a field

Chewing on a bubblegum
Living
Chewing on a bubblegum
Living in a field

Nowhere to run, nowhere to go, nowhere to hide for cover
I try so hard to be like them, but I'm not like the others
Concerned with different things, they often wonder why I bother
I've never settled down and kept friends, all I've done was suffer

Born in the USSR, then moved around, seen different faces
Sometimes I didn't hate it, but never was I complacent
Everybody knows it all but me, they always have opinions
On how I should lead my life
"Just be happy"
That is brilliant

I love to look, but hate to find, in fear of losing shit
I've turned to drugs when I was scared, I'm but a useless kid

Having panic attacks, I'm manic, I act
Frantic in fact, a baffling brat
They say "keep chasing happiness"
I find it hard imagining that

24 hours, 14 billion eyes, staring
Judging what you're doing, how you're living, what you're wearing
I'm chewing on a bubble gum, laying in a field
Connecting all the pieces, contemplating how I feel

I don't mind not having what I want
I fear not knowing it
And I do not fear fear
I fear of showing it

Would I rather be blind and deaf
And fail to see my end reach
Or use the knowledge that I've gained
To run away, but face grief

In a field
Forever
In the sun
You're heavy
In a field
Forever
In a field
You're Heavy
Chewing on a bubblegum
Living
Chewing on a bubblegum
Living
Chewing on a bubblegum
Living in a field
Chewing on a bubblegum
Living in a field
Chewing on a bubblegum
Living in a field
Chewing on a bubblegum
Living in a field