Jumping [02.02.2011]

(album: B-Sides & Rarities Vol.2 [2009-2013] - 2013)

I feel like giving up, I might be quitting living
Staring down
Thinking on this balcony I'm sitting
It's so hard to kick this Vicodin addiction
Need reasons to live, but I'm not liking what I'm getting
This pain kills me
Man, this pain's intense
And I feel it's now impossible to make new friends
And I hate this silence 'cause It seems so loud
It reminds me of how alone I am now
I've lost track of time
Dreams merge with reality
Nobody there for me
I'm hurting in agony
Maybe I'll jump this balcony
Nobody's stopping me
I'm 'bout to be free
Free from the head pains
Free from the dark thoughts
No more hallucinating
No more heart sores
My self-therapy has ended in hindsight
This outcome?
I could've prevented
A few months back I could possibly mend it
But I can't bend time
There's no stopping this cancer
Presented a multiple choice question by life
With only one possible answer
Kept climbing a ladder, with steps that drop
Every time I climbed higher
Now I can't go down
Can't turn back
Been climbing to find a solution
When this whole time it's been on the ground
I do have regrets for being too weak
To acknowledge my weakness, and go out and seek
For someone to look me in the eyes and hold my hand

For self-pity
I've sold my sands of time
Of time
I've sold my sands of time
And I'm jumping
Yeah, I'm jumping
And I'm jumping
I'm jumping
I'm jumping down
Down now
And I'm sorry
I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry
So sorry
So sorry, so sorry
But I'm jumping
Yea I'm jumping
Yea I'm jumping