Dismal

(album: Willow - 2020)

3 days and 4 nights awake
I don't know how much more I can take
As I lay astray, inside my head
Waiting for my last breath
I hope you know, I'm miserable
I've never, felt so cold
It's like breathing knives
It's just like swallowing nails

Breathing knives
Swallowing nails

Once again in love
With the feeling of
Being numb
Everything is fucked up
Can't overcome
The cravings for the poison
Now matter how much
There is never enough

I can't overcome
Cravings for the poison
No matter how much
There is never enough

4 days and 5 nights awake
I can't keep my thoughts straight
Can't measure the pressure, about to break
Take more what difference does it make

Need an escape
Take me away
I love the pain
Coursing through my veins
Don't hesitate
The longer you wait
The more time it takes
To forget everything

Brain dead
Wasted
Dismal
Lifeless

This is not who I am
This is not who I want to be

When I look in my eyes I see
Nothing looking back at me
All this time how did I not see
I manifested my misery

All I can do
Is rebuild the foundation
Abandoning my life
Is my only salvation
All I can do
Is rebuild the foundation
Abandoning my life
Is my only salvation

Brain dead
Wasted
Dismal
Lifeless