Shapeshifter (Deluxe Edition Bonus Track)

(album: Further Joy - 2022)

I've had enough
Putting pressure, hold it down
Turning colors into brown, breakdown
I'll act tough
Never let you see a face
With hair outta place
Nutcase

Stuck inside the bathroom mirrors, gonna crack soon
Will a picture prove anything compared to June?
I watch as you thrive inside your time
Fall deeper 'cause I'm wasting mine

I always loved that purple shirt
The one you threw right on the floor
Will you let me wear it for a while
Until I show you something more?

I pinch my skin until it's gone
I scream a never-ending song
It hurts, but you know what they say
That beauty's pain

What I wouldn't do
To be somebody with a sense of place
I just wanna prove
That I can see myself and not shift shape
Who the hell are you?
What did you do with the body that I knew?
Can you wake me up?
Think I've had enough
Trying to recognize who I see close up

Sixteen, I could fit into those jeans
Only eat the color green, stay clean
Small machine, tell me what to hold close
Zoom in on the pose, I feel gross

Stuck inside the shower, minutes into hours
Trying to wash away all my flawed fragility
I watch my hair fall down the drain
Hoping it takes the weight away

I used to love that orange shirt
The one I threw right on the floor
Don't think I'll wear it for a while
Until I feel something more

I pinch my legs until they're gone
I'll trip, but maybe then, I've won
It hurts, but you know what they say
That beauty's pain

What I wouldn't do
To be somebody with a sense of place
I just wanna prove
That I can see myself and not shift shape
Who the hell are you?
What did you do with the body that I knew?
Can you wake me up?
Think I've had enough
Trying to recognize who I see close up

Said I was doing better
But I'm not better
Thought I was doing better
But I'm not better
Said I was doing better
But I'm not better
Said I was doing better
But I'm not better

What I wouldn't do
To be somebody with a sense of place
I just wanna prove
That I can see myself and not shift shape
Who the hell are you?
What did you do with the body that I knew?
Can you wake me up?
I think I've had enough
Trying to recognize who I see close up