Curious

(album: The Sailor - 2019)

Imagine if life was a game
Imagine if all of this is fake
Imagine if everything ended
And we go to Heaven and meet all the greats
Imagine if there was no Drake
Imagine if there was no Wayne
Would rappers be garbage? Would people be rappin'?
Will everyone still sound the same?

Man, nobody knows it, all of a sudden
I'm overthinking, sound like I'm tripping
Came to the States, feel like I'm going Lindsay
Taste of fluoride in this water I'm drinking
I don't know why I don't make friends in this business
Seem like they all wanna win but not with me
Went to a party in hopes for some kisses
Girl and her friends and they looking delicious

I came up to 'em, there was four of 'em
There was one of me, I liked all of 'em
They liked none of me
All this bubbly got me stumbling
Talked more with the one girl with the pretty fit
'Cause I saw through her and the wall she built
She acting all that, her friends were all wack
I asked why she being cold to me
And she said she don't like guys like me
Oh, you mean smart and funny and has a big dick?
And doesn't have to fake shit just to fit in
Maybe we're not meant to be acquainting
5'9", confidence through the roof
Not to mention I'm 19, so are you
We both still got lips, let's put it to use
Then we smashed that night, she gave me the flu, ayy
(That shit was not worth it)
I got sick and sad, man, it gave me the blues
I started thinking 'bout life, all the shit I been through
At 14, when I didn't have friends or school
Or when I thought nachos was Italian food
When I thought smoking cigarettes would make me cool
All the nights that I spent in my room
I guess we could always improve

I miss my family, miss my home
Wish I could visit a little more
The journey's 20 hours, flight too long
I only get to see 'em on my phone
Time does fly
I went from good wine to seeing tears in my mom's eyes
I don't blame her, though
She used to feed me, now I live alone
Doing things she don't know about
But I'm always her angel (Always her angel)
Man, I wonder what my mom was thinking
When she realized that her son's a little too famous
A little too anxious
Went from having no friends, now he's singing on stages
I'm her youngest son
She just hoping that I know what to do with my paper

When I think about it, shit
I don't know how I could live without it
I just bought some shit at the grocery
Some coconut water and some frozen meat
This gotta be good for my dopamine
Sometimes I still miss the nicotine
I've been nervous and vomiting
Doing shows don't even sound fun to me
Told the crowd that I have food poisoning
Had a trash can side of the stage for me
Man, I don't know why it happened to me
But I think I'm right where I'm supposed to be
I think it's meant to be, I mean, I think I'm meant to be
Put a kid with a dream in a room full of books
He gon' read even though none of it's understood, ayy

Shouts out to the ones doing things
Everyone was afraid or unable to do, man
The world needs more of you, the world needs more like you
And I heard that the simplest choice that you choose
Ain't simple, it's actually huge
And the older I get, man, the more that it's true
Don't believe in the hate, just believe in the truth
I don't spend the bread, I just know how to chase it
If the difference isn't here, I'll make it
No, I do not live for validation
Fuck your comments and your mama's basement
Always rich because that's what my name is
Greatest days are on a daily basis
RZA's fucking with me, man, I made it
If I could, man, I would never change shit