insomnia

(album: my mind - 2019)

It's late at night, I'm writing poems on my phone
I'm isolated, but I never feel alone
I'm concentrated, yeah I'm all up in the zone
I gotta work 'cause soon I might be on my own
I talked to Jack about the shit up in my life
I talked to Matt about the girls I never liked
And Brad is up in D.C. looking for his wife
And Chester's graduating this year, what a sight
Surface level, everything is going great
And all these newer people cool, but can't relate
I feel like lately, I been questioning my fate
Don't wanna rush it so I guess I gotta wait
And sometimes, I really think that this is it
I got some people telling me to call it quits
My father always used to tell me get a grip
And now the world is slipping through my fingertips

Losing hope
I gotta go

That's my soft side talking
In reality, I'm a dead man walking
Do a backflip, talking 'bout the band camp parties
That was back in sixth grade, can't forget my shawty
Well, she cheated on me, but I didn't care
Brown hair, talking shit when I wasn't there
I had the buzzcut, coolest couple was us
Only kissed once, but I kept it on the hush-hush
Yeah, went to a dance at the Eagle Harbor Golf Club
At the end, we were sneaking on the golf course
Holding hands, stick together during manhunt
And whispered to me "Anthony you're such a odd dork"
Reminiscing but I'm back now
I'ma find love, never back down
I was always chilling in the background
Now they notice me, I gotta act proud