Chaos

(album: Blood Moon - 2020)

These desires will blind you
And that's the start of the end
I'm just trying to remind you
I won't take part of pretend
Now I see evil inside you
And wicked thoughts in my head
I want this light without darkness
What is life without sin

What is peace without chaos?
And lately what planet's got bee on?
I am now constantly getting shit on it
Everything's changed, now it feels like a spin off
I guess it's my problem for caring too much
The Universe gave me more love
Than regulator people can dare bare to touch
But that's the reason that everything fucked

There's a knife in my back and I can't lay down
So when I die place my face to the ground
Full disrespect my self hatred is now
The only thing I have been thinking about

I've been solving my problem with drugs and some sex
A 5th and a zip got me feeling correct
I ain't origami won't fold I won't bend
But deaths in depths of my head

These desires will blind you
And that's the start of the end
I'm just trying to remind you
I won't take part of pretend

Ion sleep I'll just rest when I'm dead
I don't forgive and I never forget
Used to sleep where my clothes would be kept
Used to sleep in the rain with no roof on my head

I've got drugs I got pain and regrets
Lifes got me failing the test
What can you give when you've given your best
100 percent nothing less
Might as well rip my heart outta my chest
And leave me for dead

Last year alone I had 20 attempts
Had 20 doctors say I need the meds
Had 20 therapists mess with my head
Popped like 10 beans and then ran outta breath

Saw the light but had no hand to guide me
I stumbled right through hell blindly
Fell back to earth, but I'm fine see
If you wanna die quick then go be just like me, yeah

These desires will blind you
And that's the start of the end
I'm just trying to remind you
I won't take part of pretend