Scars

Yo
I'm pushing you away
'Cause every time we talk, it hurts
Help me cure out my depression
It gave me a sense of worth
It's like you helped me out the mud
And then shoved me in the dirt
Now I'm stuck feeling like I'm the only person on the Earth
You were like my world
And I watched it fall apart
Now I'm drifting through the cosmos
And circling the stars
Help me put the blade down
And close up all the scars
But now my biggest scar
Is the one up on my heart
If it took my life to be with you
Then I would gladly give it
Depression's an infection
And you're the cure for the sickness
Lately I been tripping and honestly I don't get it
It was only three months but it felt like a minute
I'm stupid and annoying
But that's only cause I care
And any time you need me girl you know that I'll be there
Most nights I'm staring down a barrel
It's too much to bear
I'm afraid to let you go
I'll admit I'm fucking scared
And I hate being sober cause then I can feel the pain
So I tell myself to numb it and then grab the fucking blade
Watching as the droplets roll down my wrist like its rain
And I don't wanna leave
But you know that I can't stay