cryin too much

(album: downpour - 2019)

Oh fuck I'm drunk went and did it again
I cut my ties guess I'm losing a friend
I'm stuck your lies makes it harder to mend
My heart self harm makes it easy to pen

I'm not the monster I painted as
But I bite her neck like I'm a maniac
I love when she screams, when she cuts me I bleed
I get high as the stars, then I fall like the leaves

My minds gone bad yo what's the date
My hearts so cold bet a few could relate
Now I'm fucked in the brain, now I'm fucked in the tub
I'm fucked so often I'm prolly up on the hub

I'm prolly out of my luck, I'm prolly stupid as fuck
Cause every time that she hit me I feel adrenaline rush
I feel my energy thrust, its like I like being hurt
I feel the knife in my gut, I think I'm cryin too much

And I've been playin too much
One minute you hate me and the next you wan fuck
Just look at my love, yeah look at it goes
Every time I'm up it seems like you want me more

And that sucks my heart's inside my lungs
I hit my plug he fill me up
I don't want nothin but your love
You hit me up and said we done

Oh no oh God what have I done
Become all the things that I've been runnin from
I thought we were done talkin shit, were above that
But words turn to fists its becoming a blood bath

But I'm drunk so I run back, if you call me an asshole
I don't have a comeback, I'm not just an asshole
I know that you know that, craving my soul but I already sold that

I'm bravin the cold, you already know that I hate this
Fuck love I wanna be famous, at least I can't be shameless and
Spend all my time gettin wasted, but that's you wanted right
I don't wanna hang on right, I'm on my own tonight
You make me wanna die, I'll let you kill me some other time

Oh fuck I'm drunk went and did it again
I cut my ties guess I'm losin a friend
I'm stuck your lies makes it harder to mend
My heart self harm makes it easy to pen

I'm not the monster I painted as
But I bite her neck like I'm a maniac
I love when she screams, when she cuts me I bleed
I get high as the stars, then I fall like the leaves

My minds gone bad yo what's the date
My hearts so cold bet a few could relate
Now I'm fucked in the brain, now I'm fucked in the tub
I'm fucked so often I'm prolly up on the hub

I'm prolly out of my luck, I'm prolly stupid as fuck
Cause every time that she hit me I feel adrenaline rush
I feel my energy thrust, its like I like being hurt
I feel the knife in my gut, I think I'm cryin too much