my feelings are hiding

(album: downpour II - 2022)

You used to say you'd never leave
And now I'm wondering why
I'm not so different from the rest
You said my smile is nice
You said I'm right there when you need me
And I'm everything you like
I know you're not telling the truth
You look away when you lie

There's apart of me that's broken
But it's easier to laugh
I'ma hide all of my feelings
I mean nobody asked

I can't remember feeling safe
I think security's a myth
I can't remember feeling me
I guess it is what it is

You saved my life
You're dead inside
You're not who you used to be
You're more like a memory

You saved my life
At least you tried
You lost almost everything
Now the codependency is killing me

You used to say you were in love
But not with me, drugs
You spent more time on getting
Fried on getting high
I felt like you were giving up
Fuck

I guess you get what you deserve
I guess I'm good at getting hurt
I never knew what I was worth
I wish I knew it wouldn't work

I wish you didn't up and vanish
When you did I wish I learned
Certain people leave you sick
You end up searching for a cure

You saved my life
You're dead inside
You're not who you used to be
You're more like a memory

You saved my life
At least you tried
You lost almost everything
Now the codependency is killing me