What's With Yxu?

(album: Lxrdszn - 2017)

Laughing
Yuh, yuh, yuh
Laughing
Long Lost
Ay, ay, ay

I just stopped the longest thread from 'bout to snapping, ay
Counting all these cheques, I get it's total madness, yah
All you niggas pressing just to feed on silence, yah
My money's so long, it's got a nigga laughing, hahaha
Only speaking our true shit, white lines are clueless
My raps are like full clips, spray shit to make ruins
[?] like a new kid, this my scene and I stole it
Cut you open, leave bruises, I rap better than you bitch
You niggas all wish you could be me
You're wearing a mask but you'll wipe out, believe me
You're going so broke I can see it, I'm feeling
My [?] to my [?] beginning
I pull up and [?] with that Hu' on my wrists
I'm still sipping on gin with the lime in that bitch
Yeah I [?]
I keep racks in my Louis V. bags ever since
I don't care about you nigga's pussy games
The first time I heard shots go off was fucking traps (fucking traps)
Come look in my eyes and you'll see fucked up
Ask me why I changed and I'll just spill the truth
[?]
I'm still crawling on my knees
Still I'm grinning on my teeth
I still find it hard to breathe
With the things that I speak
Man, my scars are fucking deep
Don't care if people don't believe
Keep pushing me and then we'll see
You say you be watching the things that I'm doing
I'm losing, I'm 'bout to go crazy, I'll prove it
[?]
[?] because I was sick of the bullshit
You think you can relate?
'Cause I've been sleeping late?
I've got one request
You need to die
Most the things I hear will probably make you pussies vomit
No-one even knows you really, I don't care for shit they comment
M-M-My heart is made of stone and I'm counting all my profit
I crucified a nigga when he's finally being honest
I absorb the hate, I love that energy
I still cut my fucking wrists, I love to see myself bleed
Niggas want me dead, I'm just sitting here in disbelief
Go on, slice my neck, just put me out my fucking misery
Counting all these racks like I'm a lege' or something, yah
I don't waste my time on girls, I can't do loving, yah
Sipping on this vodka like I'm fucking Russian, hey
She asked what I loved about her, I said "Nothing"
No fear, I'm colder
Hate myself and I'm older
I'm not trying to be a poser
I'm just trying to stay sober
Fuck friends, I'm a loner
Lone heart, I'm a soldier
Long live like The Joker
With comedowns I hang over
I have seen some stuff
That I can't be asked to explain
I still can't do business
With my mouth on the 12 gauge
Me and all my haters, yah
We're all on the same page
You say that you hate me
Whatev' bitch, I feel the same way
I look down on my idols
Only question recycled
Likewise suicidal
I'm my own biggest rival
They say that I've changed and I think they're right
I played being insecure my whole fucking life