Grow Away From Me

(album: Hell Is In Your Head - 2022)

I never thought that I'd be a father
I hope my neurosis ain't a bother
Some days it feels like I'm failing
My therapist says that it's normal
She made her diagnosis formal
I can't connect like a normal person because of all my pain

There's no road map that I can give to you
Just hold on tight and know that I love you

And the first six months, they flew by, the next two years did too
Now I'm looking at old photos and it feels like I'm losing you
No matter what I do you'll grow away from me
No matter what I do you'll grow away
No matter what I do you'll grow away from me
I signed up for this tragedy
I want to make sure you know you'll always be enough
I want to make sure your hair is never tied in knots
I want to walk you down any aisle anywhere
I just want to live long enough, God, I'm scared
I'm so unprepared
It's so unfair
God, I'm scared

There's no road map that I can give to you
Just hold on tight and know that I love you

I gotta keep it together like a basement in the storm
(I gotta keep it together)
But I'm floating in the ether like a feather when the siren starts to roar
(A husband has gotta be better, a father has gotta be weather)
I will always be your shelter but the storm will someday come
(I gotta keep it together, I gotta keep it together)
But you can always find me in the way you choose to love
(A husband has gotta be better, a father has gotta be weather)

I gotta keep it
I gotta keep it together

There's no road map that I can give to you
Just hold on tight and know that I love you

You are, you are
You are the light that leads me home
You are, you are
You are the light that leads me home