Off My Shoulders

(album: No Such Thing As A Sky - 2022)

My home became a house again that's not a home
Push everyone away, I rather cry on my own
I can't tell no one, that's why I'm singing this song
No iced-out watch can make me happy at all

Believe me, I tried
I was getting my hands dirty, was done being polite
Then I was trying to clean it up, was trying to be a good guy
Don't say "Change your life," I changed it a couple of times
But nothing made me change my mind, I still
Cry, bleed and drown in grief
I was down for so long, now who's down for me?
(Nobody I see)

Twenty deep, in front of the corner store
Like we about to go to war
I can see it in their eyes, they don't really follow protocols
Who will snitch on me next? Who will switch on me next?
No real friends in the slums, no real respect
The fuck did I expect?
My liver is already giving up and my lungs gon' be next
Smoke 'til I'm dizzy, who really with me?
Drink 'til it's empty, who really with me?

Take the weight off my shoulders
And I will never pick it up again
I fought my biggest battles within myself
Well, at least I know who I'm up against

My home became a house again that's not a home
Push everyone away, I rather cry on my own
I can't tell no one, that's why I'm singing this song
No iced-out watch can make me happy at all