Only Look Outside, When It Rains

(album: No Such Thing As A Sky - 2022)

Only look outside when it rains
It's three or four or five, but I'm wide awake
Only look outside when it rains
I say I'm okay even though I'm not okay
Only look outside when it rains
Use me, use me, then throw me away
Only look outside when it rains
Just so I can feel a damn thing
Only look outside when it rains
I can't lose, it's just too much at stake
Only feel alive 'cause of pain
I got visions of me going insane, I can't catch a break

Only got friends when it pays
Fuck a fan, only God knows if I stay
Man, I tried so hard to keep me sane
Tough job to always keep an eye out for the snakes
And I laugh from time to time
Just to make it seem like I'm alright
And I ride for mine, for mine
It's the only thing keeping me alive

Only look outside when it rains
It's three or four or five, but I'm wide awake
Only look outside when it rains
I say I'm okay even though I'm not okay
Only look outside when it rains
Use me, use me, then throw me away
Only look outside when it rains
Just so I can feel a damn thing
Only look outside when it rains
I can't lose, it's just too much at stake
Only feel alive 'cause of pain
I got visions of me going insane, I can't catch a break

Only got friends when it pays
Fuck a fan, only God knows if I stay
Man, I tried so hard to keep me sane
Tough job to always keep an eye out for the snakes
And I laugh from time to time
Just to make it seem like I'm alright
And I ride for mine, for mine
It's the only thing keeping me alive