Special

(album: Everything Opposite - 2019)

Nothing sinister starts out sober
Sometimes the chemicals work me over
The things you learn at 4 AM
When do I become who I am?

Save your blast from the past, this is not a mirage
I'm a stolen car in a parking garage
On your hands and your knees, do you feel in charge?
Crawling back to who you were

I just wanna feel good
I wanna feel special
Deep down underneath the pressure
I wanna fake my pain away
I wanna fake my pain away
I just wanna feel good
I just wanna feel good
And fake my pain

I just wanna feel good
I just wanna feel good

Where's the time go? Here comes the heavy load
I've got two houses and a hungry, hungry ego
Hard to make the best of a good thing now

'Cause this town's too big, too big for the one of me
Sometimes you'll make friends with the enemy
Am I the one on the phone or a wannabe?
Are you crawling back to who you were?

'Cause I just wanna feel good
I wanna feel special
Deep down underneath the pressure
I wanna fake my pain away
I wanna fake my pain away
I just wanna feel good
I just wanna feel good
And fake my pain

I just wanna feel good
I just wanna feel good

I just wanna wake up
Put a smile on my face that isn't made up
Float just like a feather
Or sink just like a stone thrown in a river

I just wanna feel good
I wanna feel special
Deep down underneath the pressure
I wanna fake my pain away
I wanna fake my pain away
I just wanna feel good
(I wanna feel special)
When the hell is it gonna get better?
I just wanna feel good
And fake my pain

I just wanna feel good