Overbite

(album: Rhombithian - 2017)

I could've been a doctor, if I really cared enough
But I didn't have it in me
I got distracted by a bunch of stuff
I'm so stupid and empty

My mind just wasn't in it
And neither was my heart
And the drive was a lie to myself from the goddamn start
It's funny how for years I kept trying
Laughed at all the fears that I'd been hiding

It took me a while to see that it didn't matter that much to me
'Cause I think you're so cool
And I didn't wanna go away to dental school

I don't care about anything as much as I used to
I don't care about anything as much as I used to
I don't care about anything as much as I used to
Except maybe you

I wanna give up
I wanna give up
I don't wanna try no more
I wanna stop all these pathetic attempts at saving this shipwreck
And swim right out the door
Before it sinks with a fraction of what's left of my dignity
I swept so many failed tests under carpets
Deep down I knew this was not what I wanted (not what I wanted)

I don't care about anything as much as I used to
I don't care about anything as much as I used to
I don't care about anything as much as I used to
Except maybe you
I still feel just about as dumb as I used to
I still feel just about as dumb as I used to
I still feel just about as dumb as I used to (as dumb as I used to)

I didn't wanna go, but the rejection still kinda hurt
Not as much as the one from you, though
That one hurt way worse
That one hurt way worse
That one hurt way worse

I kept thinking things would get easier
I kept thinking I'd get better
I'm not basing my intelligence on some fucking letters
Now that it's over, I did what I was told I had to do

But I still feel just about as dumb as I used to
And I still feel about as dumb as I used to
I don't care about anything as much as I used to