First Time

(album: The First Time - 2015)

I put on my make up
Spray my perfume
Sat on the front porch, waiting on you
Said we would catch up because it had been awhile
I hate to admit it
But my hands are shaking
Barely breathing
Heart is racing
Looks like feelings don't always change their minds

But you never called, never showed up
Guess somethings never change
And just like living in a flashback... you let me down again

That's why the past should be the past
Far behind, back of mind, out of the way
Let the memories burn and crash
Cause sitting here looking at the driveway
Is just tearin my heart back in half
Like nothings changed except the time that's passed
And that's why good-bye should mean good-bye
The first time

I should know better
I hate that I still cry
Looking like a fool here watching for headlights
And kicking myself for believing in you again
I bet your out drinking with a new blonde and
Telling her whatevers playin is her song
Yeah and helping her up into your Chevy instead

Even when you don't have me
You can still be the one to hurt me
It must feel good to know
That I'm still holding on to letting go

That's why the past should be the past
Far behind, back of mind, out of the way
Let the memories burn and crash
Cause sitting here looking at the driveway
Is just tearin my heart back in half
Like nothings changed except the time that's passed
And that's why good-bye should mean good-bye
The first time

Yeah that's why the past should be the past
Far behind, back of mind, out of the way
Let the memories burn and crash
Cause sitting here looking at this driveway
Is just tearin my heart back in half
Like nothings changed except the time that's passed
And that's why good-bye should mean good-bye
So now I'm letting you go, just like I should've tried
The first time

Oh, the first time
And that's why the past should be the past
Oh, the first time