Now What?

(album: Feel Feelings - 2020)

Sleepless again, I'm always overthinking
The past, the present and the future
Staring at the ceiling in the dark

I finally have what I always wanted
A house, my baby slowly growing
But hey, my bed is always empty

And now what?
There's always something missing here
Now what?

I think it's clear I take after my father
Always so scared of dying alone
Without having done anything great

Now where's the girl with the carefree smile
And a giant heart, and a fearless mind?
Where is she now? Why is she scared?
And what is it that she's looking for?

And now what?
There's always something missing here
Now what?

Everything that I've always wanted to get
Is finally granted
Everything that I've always wanted to get
Is finally granted
And now what?

It's sad to see I could never be
The one you think you know I am
I don't hold up to your highest standards
Nobody can, nobody will

You were a dream, I made you up
None of it's real, none of it's real
I told myself, never again
Never again, but here I am
And I'm begging you to please teach me
How to live my life in harmony