Pain Pressure Paranoia

(album: The Course Of The Inevitable - 2021)

Uh, I love the pressure, pressure'll build ya character stronger
Here comes the pain, you'd much rather be back on the corner
That paranoia, have you thinking niggas tryna scheme on ya
But that's my life, maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm right
I numb the pain, been dealing with that heartache since a boy
Paranoid, in a world where they love to build and destroy
Fuck a lecture, I'ma need what you owe me and extra
There's nothing that you can tell me 'bout this pressure (pressure...)

Uh, dropping a bag'll fill anyone's block with shooters
Are you really my friend or an opportunist?
Bet this life'll be beautiful without the rumors
Truth is, niggas'll show their colours as soon as you flip the Rubix
Money'll never fill the void of ya family, easy to prove this
Ain't no make up amount to cover the bruises once the pain paints ya
Ya claiming to be something you really ain't, ain't ya?
Another parent that's grieving over a fake gangsta
Losing a father feels like a .50 cal
Then losing a grandmother, damn, it hit me now
Moving too fast, 'til bad news showed up to sit me down
Like what the fuck you doing, you think it's been something proven?
Pain is never seeing ya dog again
Especially when he's been more solid than all ya friends
Few numbers saved in my phone, wish I could call again
Give it all up just to go back to how it's always been

Uh, I love the pressure, pressure'll build ya character stronger
Here comes the pain, you'd much rather be back on the corner
That paranoia, have you thinking niggas tryna scheme on ya
But that's my life, maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm right
I numb the pain, been dealing with that heartache since a boy
Paranoid, in a world where they love to build and destroy
Fuck a lecture, I'ma need what you owe me and extra
There's nothing that you can tell me 'bout this pressure (pressure...)

Uh, I'm out here chilling, probably find a space to switch up by Friday
I circle the block a couple times, before I turn in my driveway
Maybe I'm bugging, but niggas be out here dying for nothing
My blood is rushing, to the thought of karma as repercussion
And I don't wanna hear about when, where, and who did what to him
Fuck is you calling me with info like that, what drug is you usin'?
Get a permanent sleep, too comfortable snoozing
Nine out of ten, it's somebody that knows ya movements
I'm cool with you, but who's ya man? Forget I asked
Just make sure that my first time seeing him is my last
Don't even trust certain kin to me, no exceptions
With life and death, ain't no chalking up imperfections
Not only will niggas say anything, they'll rehearse it too
If you never get to know where I live at, don't take it personal
Party with perpetrators, same person'll end up hurting you
On purpose you, roll the window on 'em, close up the curtain too

Uh, I love the pressure, pressure'll build ya character stronger
Here comes the pain, you'd much rather be back on the corner
That paranoia, have you thinking niggas tryna scheme on ya
But that's my life, maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm right
I numb the pain, been dealing with that heartache since a boy
Paranoid, in a world where they love to build and destroy
Fuck a lecture, I'ma need what you owe me and extra
There's nothing that you can tell me 'bout this pressure (pressure...)

Uh, any rise to success is better with balancing
Would it really mean shit if it wasn't challengin'?
Losing is only embarrassing if you stay down
Trey pound when you ball, entertainment's the devil's playground
So many drop, it's a constant struggle to stay round
Medic supply the pressure, lost 'em all to the same sound
Two decades worth of recordings, feels like I never miss
A thousand hours recording makes it look effortless
Sometimes ya worst obstacle is yourself, agreed opponent
Lovely to overcome downfalls when they praying on it
When you up a dilemma sounds like a favor, don't it?
Claiming they riding for ya, got fucked up ways to show it
You don't gave 'em hunnid percent, you'll regret it
Give 'til you empty, nobody is empathetic
Making them babies, leave something they can inherit
Most of us had to break out the cycle without the leverage

Uh, I love the pressure, pressure'll build ya character stronger
Here comes the pain, you'd much rather be back on the corner
That paranoia, have you thinking niggas tryna scheme on ya
But that's my life, maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm right
I numb the pain, been dealing with that heartache since a boy
Paranoid, in a world where they love to build and destroy
Fuck a lecture, I'ma need what you owe me and extra
There's nothing that you can tell me 'bout this pressure (pressure...)