Not A Race

(album: Orchards - 2021)

Summer feels like a weight on my chest
And it comes in waves
I can't even talk about you yet
Without the pain

If seasons never change until it's time
And flowers only bloom when it's right
Then how can hearts get broken overnight

I feel like I'm always first to fall in love
And when I get hurt, I don't heal fast enough
Will I ever learn that some things can't be rushed?
And healing's not a race

Why do I try so hard to catch back up?
Why does it feel like I'm not strong enough?
Will I ever learn that some things can't be rushed?
And it's okay
'Cause healing's not a race

Freedom comes when you least expect
From little things
Like morning air and the sun on my skin
And the birds that sing

If seasons never change until it's time
And flowers only bloom when it's right
Then why is it so hard for me to make it through the middle of the night

I feel like I'm always first to fall in love
And when I get hurt, I don't heal fast enough
Will I ever learn that some things can't be rushed?
And healing's not a race

Why do I try so hard to catch back up?
Why does it feel like I'm not strong enough?
Will I ever learn that some things can't be rushed?
And it's okay
'Cause healing's not a race

Will I ever learn that it's okay?

I feel like I'm always first to fall in love
And when I get hurt, I don't heal fast enough
Will I ever learn that some things can't be rushed?
And healing's not a race

Why do I try so hard to catch back up?
Why does it feel like I'm not strong enough?
Will I ever learn that some things can't be rushed?
And it's okay
'Cause healing's not a race