Why Can't I Have What I Want Any Time That I Want?

(album: The Beggar - 2023)

When will time erase this stupid smile from my face?
I still feel you in my veins, pure and refined, while I raged
Questions are of no consequence
Humiliations are easily subsumed
In oblivion
And indifference
With a love that is malignant and true

All wrong, wrong, wrong
Wrong, wrong, wrong
I am wrong in this skin
But that's where my need for you begins
With your nails through my hands
On the hill that I till
On the cross that I built
Crying for more, more, more

Give me more, give me more
I am your supplicant, I'm your whore
I'm unconscious on the floor
But my hand is reaching for your door
There's a shadow of your taste
And the bloodrush in my gut
No, it's never, never enough
Why would I ever give you up?

All lost, lost, lost
Now I want to pay the cost
I don't care, just erase
Every memory, every trace
Let me run through the ruins
From the failure and regret
Just open up my mouth
And pour your tongue into my head

All gone, gone, gone
I am lost without your breath
Now my teeth are cracked and red
I am begging at the foot of your bed:
Give me one more taste of death

Why can't I have what I want any time that I want?
Why can't I have what I want any time that I want?