Lonely Nights On A Spaceship

Tally marks on my window tell me how long I've been gone
Never thought I would go to space and write the saddest song
But I'm staring into that universe is making me feel small
Like yeah I'm the Astronaut but I don't feel involved
Starting to rethink my job
I'm dying for a call
But these 9 to 5ers all retire after 5 o'clock
Now it's just me, myself, and all my shallow thoughts
Is anybody out there that can help me make this stop

Like I haven't bragged about myself in 12 or so days
Going through withdrawals like and addict with the shakes

And I just want to know
When could I come home
Think I chased my whole dream just I could talk about it
Now I'm on top of the world, and my motives are all clouded
Like woah

I'm not really about this
So alone
And my ego is feeling crowded
What a joke
I missed the whole journey and adventures that surround it
Solely focused on my fame instead of staying grounded
Now my insecurity has no gravity around it
And I'm doubting I'm doubting

Did I want to get out to find far away places
Or was my pursuit about the clout
And me becoming famous
So far

The only thing I've found is that it's lonely on a spaceship
And I hate it
Man I hate it
I don't know how much longer I can take it
I don't know how much longer I can take it
Guess I'll scratch another tally while I'm waiting

While I'm waiting