Numb

(album: Escalating Quickly - 2019)

Too many sleepless nights
I agonized over every detail
Moving left then moving right
Realize I'm only chasing my tail

No more chewing off my nails
No more working through the night
No more replays in my head
Of all the things I didn't say right
No more plotting all the ways
And endless try to optimize
No more practice no more prep
Resist the urge to apologize

I'm cranking up the numb
Turning down the give a shit
Gonna have some fun
I'll mute the noise that worries myself sick
Turning up the "I don't care"
Gonna have some fun
I've given my last fuck there's nothing there

So glad I let it slide
My worry washing off of me now
Losing grip not holding tight
To weight that's only dragging me down

No more chewing off my nails
No more working through the night
No more replays in my head
Of all the things I didn't say right
No more plotting all the ways
And endless try to optimize
No more practice no more prep
Resist the urge to apologize

I'm cranking up the numb
Turning down the give a shit
Gonna have some fun
I'll mute the noise that worries myself sick
Turning up the "I don't care"
Gonna have some fun
I've given my last fuck there's nothing there

I've given my last fuck there's nothing there
There's nothing there
There's nothing there
There's nothing there
There's nothing there
There's nothing there
There's nothing there
There's nothing there
I'm cranking up the numb