Feelin

(album: Bad Ideas - 2019)

Spent the winter pretending I'm okay
And I love a sinner 'cause they look the other way
But I been going under, pretending that I'm okay
I'm a girl of thunder, wishing all the world away like

Wine with dinner, I talk but I don't say

How I been (Feelin')
How I been (Feeling about, hey!)
All of these (Feelings)
Or do you want me now?
How I been (Feelin')
Pretending I'm (Dealing without, hey!)
But I ain't (Feelin')
Or do you want me out? Ha!

Was it easy, deciding you're not mine?
Do you feel me, do I ever cross your mind?
And I hate that you affect the way I feel at all
I don't deserve to find my footing just to fall and

Wine with dinner, I talk but I don't say

How I been (Feelin')
How I been (Feeling about, hey!)
All of these (Feelings)
Or do you want me now?
How I been (Feelin')
Pretending I'm (Dealing without, hey!)
But I ain't (Feelin')
Or do you want me out? Ha!

Now, voice, I don't need you to crack
No telling what you might say that I can't take back
And I don't think I can open up the door
I'm afraid to give a voice to what I'm wanting for
So I don't, or I can't, or I won't
But it's like I'm going crazy
Thinking about, mmm

How I been (Feelin')
How I been (Feeling about, hey!)
All of these (Feelings)
Or do you want me now?
How I been (Feelin')
Pretending I'm (Dealing without, hey!)
But I ain't (Feelin')
Or do you want me out? Ha!