If I'm Honest

(album: Out Of My Mind - 2023)

If I'm honest, I saved his picture on my phone
I pull it up when I'm alone, fantasizing
And if I'm honest, I know where you'll be tonight
I'll show up and act surprised but I'm lying

Is that too honest? I do it everytime
I say too much, then I cross the line
I trip on my words again
I wonder if I tell the truth

Would he go? Would he stay? Would he want me?
Would I laugh? Would I cry? Would it haunt me?
Oh, I don't know what to do
I'm in love with the feeling of falling
I get drunk on the thought that he wants it

If I'm honest, yeah, I get nauseous
Thinking about what he might say
If I told him I would wait for him forever

Is that too honest? I do it everytime
I say too much, then I cross the line
I trip on my words again
I wonder if I tell the truth

Would he go? Would he stay? Would he want me?
Would I laugh? Would I cry? Would it haunt me?
Oh, I don't know what to do
I'm in love with the feeling of falling
I get drunk on the thought that he wants it
If I'm honest

And I, I'm so terrified
I just wanna get it right this time

If I'm honest
I've been thinking about you, thinking about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinking about you, thinking about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinking about you, thinking about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinking about you, thinking about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinking about you, thinking about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinking about you, thinking about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinking about you, thinking about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinking about you, thinking about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinking about you, thinking about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinking about you, thinking about you
If I'm honest