For Months Now

(album: Out Of My Mind - 2023)

It happened in your car and again at the bar
It doesn't matter where we are, it's a pattern
You get to fall apart, you're selfish, you don't think you are
Little things are the biggest part of the matter

That night you left me with your friends
I left you a little bit then
It happens again and again
Have you noticed?

I've been leaving you for months now
I just haven't found a way out
I don't love you like I used to
But I don't know how to tell you
When you're happy, I'm the saddest
You're gonna hate me when it happens
Keeping a secret, and I'm not proud
I've been leaving you for months now

It's not a big surprise, you've seen it in my eyes
Every time you make me cry, you call it "tough love"
And you're not happy for me, not the way you ought to be
And I'm tired of playing down all of the good stuff, oh-oh-oh

I've been leaving you for months now
I just haven't found the way out
I don't love you like I used to
But I don't know how to tell you
When you're happy, I'm the saddest
You're gonna hate me when it happens
Keeping a secret, and I'm not proud
I've been leaving you for months now

When I love you, I hate you the most
When I love you, I hate you the most
When I love you, I hate you the most
When I love you, I hate you the most
When I love you, I hate you the most
When I love you, I hate you the most

I've been leaving you for months now
I just haven't found a way out
I don't love you like I used to
But I don't know how to tell you
When you're happy, I'm the saddest (Oh, I'm the saddest)
You're gonna hate me when it happens (Ooh)
Keeping a secret, and I'm not proud
I've been leaving you for months now

I just had to find a way out
I've been leaving you for months now