Who I've Become

(album: Ashes - 2018)

The days go on and on
And I barely blink an eye
I have done plenty wrong
All without a clear state of mind
Somewhere along the way, I lost myself
Trying to clear my mind, why can't I be like everyone else?

I'm forcing down all the hate
That I have against who I've turned into
Please just give it to me straight
Because I need to hear the truth about what's wrong with me
So hopefully one day I'll change all of the things I cannot see

I feel I'm living a lie
The ghosts of my past feel so alive

I can't believe that this is who I've become
I've been reflecting on the things I did and should have done
My stubbornness and arrogance have left me feeling sore
I'm a mess and I can't take it anymore

I feel the guilt
I feel the shame inside of me

I used to spend so many nights
Just staring at the empty sky
Hoping that the universe would take over and set things right

How could I have felt so justified?
Is there still time to make it right?

I can't believe that this is who I've become
I've been reflecting on the things I did and should have done
My stubbornness and arrogance have left me feeling sore
I'm a mess and I can't take it anymore

Forgive me, I'm begging you
Forgive me, I'm begging you

Forgive me, I'm begging you
I used to spend so many nights
Forgive me, I'm begging you
Just staring at the empty sky
Forgive me, I'm begging you
I used to spend so many nights
Forgive me, I'm begging you
Just staring at the empty sky