Loner

(album: Far From Normal - 2021)

Fighting me inside of me I'm trying
I can see the fire in my eyes
I'll admit a part of me is dying
But nobody could ever feel the pain stuck in my mind
And I don't really know ya
I been killing everybody in my way I'm a soldier
I been carrying the weight on my shoulders
Fuck their feelings I don't want no friends I'm a loner

Fuck 'em all they don't really know me
The love is dead and they not my homie
Tryna see it all eye to eye
But I can't do that cause they all below me
Full of pain I don't want the pills
I wipe my tears with the dollar bills
I done talked to like all my demons
They told me not to hide how I feel
I been controlling
My own emotion
I'm better off without any talking
Every morning
I'm back to holding on
Every grudge that I ever started
Heard the reaper he been calling
Fighting back and I been stalling
I ain't ready for that time yet
Cause I got a lot left to accomplish

Fighting me inside of me I'm trying
I can see the fire in my eyes
I'll admit a part of me is dying
But nobody could ever feel the pain stuck in my mind
And I don't really know ya
I been killing everybody in my way I'm a soldier
I been carrying the weight on my shoulders
Fuck their feelings I don't want no friends I'm a loner

Got a lotta new burned bridges
I don't care cause I don't miss 'em
Better off being by myself
Cause they never been in my own position
Lotta talking they got opinions
But none of them have got my experience
10 years I been doing this
So why the fuck would I wanna hear 'em
Back to working on every song
Putting hours in and they paying off
Can't forget when I started out
Cause I'm here today could be gone tomorrow
Fuck the trends I'm here to stay
No I'm not a puppet I won't obey
Anybody with an open hand
Cause l see the fakes from a mile away

Fighting me inside of me I'm trying
I can see the fire in my eyes
I'll admit a part of me is dying
But nobody could ever feel the pain stuck in my mind
And I don't really know ya
I been killing everybody in my way I'm a soldier
I been carrying the weight on my shoulders
Fuck their feelings I don't want no friends I'm a loner