If I Loved A Boy

(album: Love Me - 2023)

If I loved a boy (if I loved a boy)
Would you love me any less?
If I didn't enjoy (if I didn't enjoy)
Being married to my ex
Would you be annoyed (would you be annoyed)
If I told you I was depressed?
But you don't need to answer cause I know the answer (the answer)
And I know it's always been yes

Goddamn it's looking real bad
When you tell me where you are and I tell you where I'm at
But God's plan isn't looking half bad
Cause everybody wants what they know they'll never have
But there's no chance that I'll be seeing that
Cause I wanna feel love, but I'm only feeling sad
Cause Gods plan is basically my dad's
And all he's ever wanted is a son he's never had

But I know that I only really want you
It doesn't matter what they say or Jesus could do
If this is sinning then I don't think I like the truth
Cause if I don't get you baby tell me what's the use?

If I loved a boy (if I loved a boy)
Would you love me any less?
If I didn't enjoy (if I didn't enjoy)
Being married to my ex
Would you be annoyed (would you be annoyed)
If I told you I was depressed?
But you don't need to answer cause I know the answer (the answer)
And I know it's always been yes

Lately I'm a pain in the ass
Cause I think a little long when I should be thinking fast
My friends only want for me the best
But I push 'em all away and I stay where I'm at
Oh shit, I'm in my head again
Doesn't matter where I go
Doesn't matter where I've been
Cause my head, yeah it's only gonna spin
And I didn't even drink
It wouldn't matter if I did

But I know that I only really want you
It doesn't matter what they say or Jesus could do
If this is sinning then I don't think I like the truth
Cause if I don't get you baby tell me what's the use?

If I loved a boy (if I loved a boy)
Would you love me any less?
If I didn't enjoy (if I didn't enjoy)
Being married to my ex
Would you be annoyed (would you be annoyed)
If I told you I was depressed?
But you don't need to answer cause I know the answer (the answer)
And I know it's always been yes

Love me, love me
Love me, love me, love me, love me
Love me, love me, love me, love me, love me
Love me, love me, love me, love me, love me

If I loved a boy
Would you love me any less?
If I didn't enjoy
Being married to my ex
Would you be annoyed
If I told you I was depressed?
But you don't need to answer cause I know the answer
And I know it's always been yes