Confidant

(album: and everybody else smiled back - 2021)

8AM

I awake from the comatose but the nurses never glance
Because I was asleep on my friend's sofa, they were going out to class
I ascended the stairs to find you, still lying in her bed
We had classes too but we just talked fragile till noon instead

(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)

You laugh at all my jokes, not because you'd understand
But because you were my home, built on stone instead of sand
And when you went away to stay in some foreign distant land
I still felt you in my brain, smiling, holding my hand

You didn't want a boy to free you
You just needed a confidant (needed a confidant)
Someone to understand you
Not just biding for their own wants (biding for their own wants)
And I would be anything for you
Cause on those most chaotic nights (needed a confidant)
You were my warm calming companion
Like the sweetest cup of chai

We tied grass around our fingers
Faux Halloween night wedding
The grass would never last
But we didn't care for fancy things
I wrote two songs about our lives
And nights oh so fantastic
And from a Christmas cracker you got me a new ring made of plastic
I felt I lost that piece of us
When my mind began to fray
When you came home
I let our house fall into disarray
My ring fell down the drain
As I washed my twisted face
Because I let your essence go
I've not felt clean to this day...

You didn't want a boy to free you
You just needed a confidant (needed a confidant)
Someone to understand you
Not just biding for their own wants (biding for their own wants)
And I would be anything for you
Cause on those most chaotic nights (needed a confidant)
You were my warm calming companion
Like the sweetest cup of chai