Grinding Teeth

(album: Letters To Our Former Selves - 2019)

We've been here before, passed out on the floor
You tell me and all your friends how you don't need me anymore
How you don't need me anymore

And who the fuck am I kidding?
I know how this goes now
You never needed me like I needed you
So why the hell do I still wish you well?
You'll never know me
Like you think you do
As if it ever mattered cause after all
You don't need me anymore

Do you at least now see how much this means to me?

I can't wait another day
You have left me not knowing what to do (what to do)
I beg you to stay you act like you don't want to
I grind my teeth. I am losing sleep
These one-way conversations made me want to hate you
But I can't hate you (I can't hate you)

Weighted down by things you've said
I'm left staring in your eyes, they're dead
How can practice make us perfect
If our perfect is nothing?
And these choices I'm making
Are from promises you're breaking
Looking back on those wasted years
What was I thinking?

I can't wait another day
You have left me not knowing what to do (what to do)
I beg you to stay you act like you don't want to
I grind my teeth. I am losing sleep
These one-way conversations made me want to hate you
These conversations made me hate you
These conversations made me hate you

Let's bring you up to speed
This is the last you'll hear from me
The last you'll hear from me
Here's a note all in hopes
You'll find my aspirations at the end of this rope
It'll make you see what this meant to me
Now you're just a witness at a tragedy
Now you're just a witness at a tragedy

(Now I don't need you)
So I died all alone, just like I knew all along
That's how it always played out in my head
Since I was a fucked up kid
(Now I don't need you)
And I was holding my breath about this
So when these tired lungs just caved
I knew I'd never be something you'd miss
(Now I don't need you)
And deep down through this façade you see
I just couldn't be the better man
You hoped I could be