Reset

(album: You Will Not Be Saved - 2019)

I wanna stop it all
Tell myself I'm doing better when I'm not at all
Nobody sees it, so they never tell me "Knock it off"
Maybe they're just not involved (Oh no)
They just standing outside in a huddle
What's the point of playing when I know I'll fumble?
It's me, myself, and I that gets in trouble, but
Um...

Bitch, I've been on tens since I turned ten
A lot of rules to the game but I learned them
I broke them all and reversed them
Tell myself I'm never gonna go or how I've been the worst yet
The locked doors turning new ways out
I heard they only turn to you because the truth played out
If I keep listening to demo when it's too laid down
And I duck when the motherfuckers do spray rounds

Why do I feel like a reject
When I know I got your respect?
I wish I could stop just to reset
But I can't
Then why do I feel like a let-down?
All like the words of my self-doubt
I wish I could call out for help now
But I can't

And I can't, and I can't
So why do I feel like a let-down?
I wish I could call out for help now
But I can't

Leave me alone
This why I stay on my own
Ain't waiting to get in my zone
Fuck what you've seen
I keep it real as my reps
Every word I say I mean
Why do I got a problem inside?
I gotta learn that I'm better than [?]
Also my conscience is way out my mind
It's impossible, it's gonna eat me alive
And I tell 'em all

Gave a lot of nothing, came back, yeah
Always cautious, wouldn't like my last back
Pushing me, went past that
Looking over the edge from a glass step
I hope to God this will be my last breath
I got a family back at home and they need this change
He's been working way too long so I don't beat his change
If I gotta sell my soul and beat and leave these chains
That's the way you'll ever be detained
So what the fuck am I mad for?
I throw my parlors off to the backboard
No re-benefits needed to pass more
You losers are mad sore
I'm getting all the shit that I asked
For when I'm down, and just look at the past more
So tell me why

Why do I feel like a reject
When I know I got your respect?
I wish I could stop just to reset
But I can't
Then why do I feel like a let-down?
All like the words of my self-doubt
I wish I could call out for help now
But I can't

And I can't, and I can't
So why do I feel like a let-down?
I wish I could call out for help now
But I can't

They tell me I can't [?]
But I don't know
They tell me I can't go on
[?]

So why do I feel like a let-down?
All like the words of my self-doubt
I wish I could call out for help now
But I can't