Because We Had To

(album: Because We Had To - 2018)

Well you were wrong about the way
You said my memory would change
Day after day, you claimed
I'd find it inside of me to grow
Away from the pain
And the shame and the guilt
And the questions
Wondering what did I do wrong
To you, to decide it was time to go

Because we had to
Because I tried the best that I could
To have and to hold you
In the way I knew that I should
And we'd still be breathing darling
If I did the little you asked of me
But I couldn't, so now we're nothing at all

The way that the night came down
You were alone in your room
With somebody else
But you were too big, and bold in my eyes
And I was to cowardly to call all your lies
Well I didn't know not telling the truth
Would cost me my soul, and most of my youth
So with you I stayed in spite of myself
And I don't know why

Because we had to
Because I tried the best that I could
To have and to hold you
In the way I knew that I should
And we'd still be breathing darling
If I did the little you asked of me
But I couldn't, so now we're nothing at all

Why would you roam when you knew
That I'd always be coming back home, alone, to you?
You knew that I never, ever, ever, ever
Would have done that to you
Still you did

Because you had to
But still I tried the best that I could
To have and to hold you
In the way I knew that I should
And we'd still be breathing darling
If I did the little you asked of me
But I couldn't, so now we're nothing at all

And when we were younger
And our hearts outpaced our wits
It was better and I preferred to live in the ignorance
In the bubble that you built with a fake facade
In the guise of another
Well you sold lies and I bought them all