Would It Matter

(album: Insomnia. - 2020)

Would it even matter if I told you how I felt?
I know no one cares, and so I keep it to myself
I know no ones there, so ima do this with no help
My mind is a prison, I feel locked inside a cell
Looking for somebody who gon' save me from myself
I can't really trust a thing that all these people tell me
Everybody wanna claim they know me
But I swear that they don't even know a thing

Staring off into the ceiling now
Laying down inside the living room, just spacing out
I can feel my every thought coming and crashing down
Stuck inside and Ima find a way to make it out
Before my grandma died I told her I would make her proud
I hope she sees me and she smiles when she's looking down
I been low, but who doesn't stress from time to time?
I chill with Benji, we like Finn and Jake, Adventure Time
It's getting cold inside this room, and these blankets just ain't helping
Think it's time to smoke to save my self from overthinking
Don't know why I care so much, but I always seem to feel it
Think I need to get up, instead of dragging myself in it
Cause drowning myself in all this doubt, drives me psycho
Like singing a song, but you don't ever hit the right notes
Writing a song, but hating everything that you wrote
Wanting a home, but hating everywhere that you go
Don't talk to me, if you're just gonna waste my time
Don't fuck with me, if you're just gonna feed me lies
Don't talk to me, if you're just going to be mean
Don't fuck with me, if you don't plan on being sweet
Baby are you down?
Will you stay around?
I need a girl who gon' pick me when I am down
We could leave this town
Just need each other around
I need a real one who gon love me till I'm deep in the ground

By myself again
Tossing and turning at night
Yeah I know I won't sleep so I turn on the light
I be checking my phone but it's so late at night
I look for a text, but there's not one in sight
I been looking for someone who I could call "mine"
Roll some loud smoke it up and I start to feel fine
I know things that I stress is just all in my mind
I just need to stay focused and stay on my grind
I just stay on my grind
Doing all that I can

Would it even matter if I told you how I felt?
I know no one cares, and so I keep it to myself
I know no ones there, so Ima do this with no help
My mind is a prison, I feel locked inside a cell
Looking for somebody who gon' save me from myself
I can't really trust a thing that all these people tell me
Everybody wanna claim they know me
But I swear that they don't even know a thing