I Told You That I Was Afraid

(album: Expert In A Dying Field - 2022)

I told you that I was afraid
That I would have a bad trip, fall asleep, and never wake
They told me back at school that it would happen
I believed it 'til I didn't

I told you that I was afraid
Of stating my opinion in a clear and honest way
They told me in my youth it wasn't needed
Some thoughts are best deleted
And everyone agreed it

I don't know what I'm getting up for
I don't know what I'm getting up for

I'm not getting taller anymore
So when I fall it's always the same distance as before
You'd think that I'd learn to anticipate it
By the millionth time I ate it

And I told you that I wasn't scared
That even if I fractured every bone I didn't care
I never told a lie so confidently
But you let me down so gently
The concrete barely bent me

I don't know what I'm getting up for
I don't know what I'm getting up for
One more year then I'll look at the score
I don't know what I'm getting up for

Kindly tell me a lie
Will you look me in the eye
And say it'll all be all right in the end?
Kindly tell me a lie
Will you cross your heart and hope to die
It'll all be all right in the end

Kindly tell me a lie
Will you look me in the eye
And say it'll all be all right in the end?
Kindly tell me a lie
Will you cross your heart and hope to die
Cross your heart and hope to die
Cross your heart and hope to die

I told you that I was afraid
That everyone around holds me in some secret disdain
That I was held a fool so far deluded
You told me that was stupid
But could never really prove it

I don't know what I'm getting up for
I don't know what I'm getting up for
One more year then I'll look at the score
I don't know what I'm getting up for

I don't know what I'm getting up for (I told you that I was afraid)
I don't know what I'm getting up for (I told you that I was afraid)
One more year then I'll look at the score
I don't know what I'm getting up for