Right Now

(album: Soul Therapy - 2021)

Uh
I got two little sisters that I hardly call (Call)
That I feel like I hardly know, and it's all my fault (All my fault)
Guess I be feeling guilty 'cause I dropped the ball
But if I could, I'll try to explain how it started off (I'll try)
And to the tenth grade, I was papa's only C (Yeah)
And just before you was born, I was forced to leave (Leave)
At fifteen, had to move to H-Town
Now I got two younger siblings, but it's feeling like it's only me (It's only me)
Except for a couple long visits (Uh)
It felt like our relationship was all pictures (All pictures)
Even if I could have called, you still couldn't talk
'Cause you were just a baby, our foundation was long-distance (Long-distance)
I guess I got used to being far away (Ssh)
And now that I can call, I don't call
'Cause the truth is, I don't really know what to call or say
But if it's cool wit' you, maybe we could start today

If I'm wrong (If I'm wrong)
Can I make it better right now? (Oh-oh-oh)
Hit me when you hear the song
Can I still make a difference in your life now? (Yeah)
Or is it too late
To make it better right now?
So what do you say? (Oh-oh)
Can I still make a difference in your life now? (Yeah, oh)

Now I feel like we in this funny place (Funny place)
We don't really hit each other up to say much today
And usually when we do, it's a money case (I got you)
And the thought that comes to mind, I don't wanna say (Uh)
Sometimes I wonder if I send it 'cause I feel indebted (Feel indebted)
Like it's the least I can do when I ain't been really present (Present)
Sometimes I wonder if you feel neglected (Pssh)
If I step in to be your brother, will I get rejected? (Uh)
It's at the point now I don't even follow y'all on IG (IG)
I'm too afraid of what I might see
I be disappointed at the way you show your body off
You blocked me when I told you "Knock it off"
And after that, we ain't talk at all (Dang)
I can't just be a big brother when I slide a check through (Slide a check through)
And not be a big brother when it's time to check you (Check you)
I could have called, but I ain't no what to call and say (Uh)
But if you listening to this song, we can start today

If I'm wrong (If I'm wrong)
Can I make it better right now? (Oh-oh-oh)
Hit me when you hear the song
Can I still make a difference in your life now? (Yeah)
Or is it too late
To make it better right now?
So what do you say? (Oh-oh)
Can I still make a difference in your life now? (Yeah, oh)

Uh
Pops said he wanted us to be close (Close)
And it's like he put it all on me, though he wasn't (It's not fair)
But if you the one spreading out yo' C's, though
When them trees grow, how you expect to see those leaves touchin'? (Real talk)
Plus, you know we had a long season (Season)
Wit' our pops and yo' moms beefing (Beefin') and not speaking
Pops said I was disloyal just for trying to go and visit
So I guess I gotta wait until it's Pops' weekend (Uh)
So is it all his fault? Is it me? Is it us? (Us)
I don't think this was how it was 'posed to be from the jump (Jump)
Pops had two good women and he married nuns (Nuns)
Beat us up then blame us when we can't adjust (Uh)
But I know that things happen, so we make do (Make do)
And I apologize if I ever made you
Feel unloved, I guess that's what I should call and say (Call and say)
But maybe if I'm not too late, we can start today

If I'm wrong (If I'm wrong)
Can I make it better right now? (Oh-oh-oh)
Hit me when you hear the song
Can I still make a difference in your life now? (Yeah)
Or is it too late
To make it better right now?
So what do you say? (Oh-oh)
Can I still make a difference in your life now? (Yeah, oh)