A Beautiful Death

(album: So Much Blood - 2022)

Blood under the fingernails, a penny for my sins
Kiss and toss it in the wishing well, now this is how it ends
Should've known when she licked her lips
That I would never make it out alive
I could feel the evil in her fingertips
There ain't no way I will survive
A freak bitch and a pagan witch
All tatted up with a pentagram
Said to me, "I'ma savor this"
And then the shit really hit the fan
Lights out, knife out, I'm in the dark
With a blade running down my throat
Pressed down, put it straight to my heart
Now I'm thinking that is all she wrote
And I seen my life passing before my eyes
About to die between her thighs
Think I should be mortified
But honestly I can't decide
This ain't how I figured it would end for me
Balls deep in a lunatic
Or maybe I am fucking with an entity
And should've brought me a crucifix

Is it real or my imagination?
Could it be murder or deadly infatuation?
Either way my heart and mind are fucking racing
Tell me how I end up in these situations
She might try to kill then send me straight to hell
But I love the way it feel because she do it well
Now the freak is off the leash and I have been condemned
I think that we gon' need a priest no matter how this end

Blood inside my mouth, temptation put me in this hell
Was it passion or asphyxiation, I will never tell
Should've known when she looked at me
That I was looking in the eyes of a crazy chick
It's messed up but it look to be
That I'm 'bout to fucking die by this crazy bitch
She grinning like a Cheshire Cat
With a knife to my neck and her claws in me
Intent how you measure that
I can't explain all the stress this causing me
Reached up and I grabbed her throat
Then she leaned into it when I started to choke
We all in now, I'ma go for broke
And if I go out fucking I want all the smoke
She moaning and I'm squeezing
Lay here, wait for my demise
All that moaning went to screaming
Felt something I can't describe
I died a little bit on that night
And I don't feel no fucking shame
To say that little bitch changed my life
And I will never be the same, thank you

Is it real or my imagination?
Could it be murder or deadly infatuation?
Either way my heart and mind are fucking racing
Tell me how I end up in these situations
She might try to kill then send me straight to hell
But I love the way it feel because she do it well
Now the freak is off the leash and I have been condemned
I think that we gon' need a priest no matter how this end