Immortal

(album: All Love Lost - 2015)

What if the hunger was missin'? What if the passion was gone?
If we're truthfully speaking, never saw it lasting this long
If the words didn't rhyme, what would I do for a livin'?
But I've been dead for so long, I figure I'm due for some living
They only see the effects, never pay no mind to the cause
My thinking is so complex, implicit, he can get lost
What if everybody was real and I wasn't surrounded by frauds?
The moral in that is so priceless just cause I know what it costs
Looking back, damn near every problem, I had it
Never got 'em retracted
I combat it, problematic, every problem of an addict
But that's just the way the cards fell
Heartfelt but can you be cheated if God dealt?
Fuck this shit, only regret that I have is never being regretful
I mean they all tried to kill me, none of them were successful
A few I knew for some years, some never met me and tried
But you can't kill nothing that's ready to die

[Hook Joe Budden & Emanny:]
They say I live my own way, own way, and that's fine
I'm just living my own way, own way, like I can't die
They can't remove my heart, my soul might take it's toll
The air I breathe and the ground below
But no way, no way, let 'em all try
That's how it feels to be immortal
Immortal
That's how it feels to be immortal
Immortal
That's how it feels to be immortal

And now I'm feeling like Steven when he was up in that hospital
Nigga shot him nine times, they got him thinking illogical
Crippled, feeling immortal, he cheated death, he unstoppable
He just want that revenge, nigga, feel like dying's impossible
They want me to regress like I ain't been through the worst
Instead of me being blessed, they want me pinned in that dirt
If you knew me in the past you would think my winning's deserved
They never noticed my path and all the sins I did first
Both my parents did drugs, see they put them syringes to work
And I carry that same exact gene, but I never mention I'm cursed
Those prescriptions were murder, I blame it all on that nurse
She started my relapse way back, I developed a thing for them percs
Fuck this shit, only regret that I have is ever being regretful
Them fucking pills tried to kill me, none of them were successful
I close my hands on my knees, send these words to the sky
You can't kill nothing that's ready to die, fuck this shit

[Hook Joe Budden & Emanny:]
Say I live my own way, own way, and that's fine
I'm just living my own way, own way, like I can't die
They can't remove my heart, my soul might take it's toll
The air I breathe and the ground below
But no way, no way, let 'em all try
That's how it feels to be immortal
Immortal
That's how it feels to be immortal
Immortal
That's how it feels to be immortal

See I'm so self destructive, hurt anyone that come near
Done it my whole career, was always one of her fears
Hurt her so much in the past, I'm supposed to be healing her
But she love me so much, she say that it's only killing her
Now she say she can't watch it, pill popping, it's toxic
Promised her I would stop it, just go hide when I pop it
It's a shame we can never be the same, wasn't prideful
How can I tell you I'm nowhere near finished from being suicidal?
Baby that wasn't me, just some nigga that smelled like me
Fuck like you stuck by some nigga that felt like me
You watched me lose weight, you just waited there helplessly
You just offering help to me, I just dissed the shit selfishly
When you left, I condemned you, really I should commend you
Not for having that in you, but for having the strength to
I make amends to you now, you shouldn't have seen me that high
I killed you when you wasn't ready to die

[Hook Joe Budden & Emanny:]
Say I live my own way, own way, and that's fine
I'm just living my own way, own way, like I can't die
They can't remove my heart, my soul might take it's toll
The air I breathe and the ground below
But no way, no way, let 'em all try
That's how it feels to be immortal
Immortal
That's how it feels to be immortal
Immortal
That's how it feels to be immortal