Mind Vomit

(album: Mad Haven - 2013)

Before I start, I just want to be clear
This song was not for you all but since I got ya ears
I'm gon say some stuff I've been waiting to say for years
I'm sorry if I offend but this me being clear
Who am I to you, nobody but trash I wouldn't lie to you
I'm not a threat its only one of a me and yet a lot of you
Here to cock and aim a shot when I shoot I follow through so
In the end I hope the spirit will jump, hallelu
Been gave the gospel truth
Gave you all my point of views
When I spit at you look at me like sick you sick with the stomach flew
I looked at god he told me Aaron I'm not what you equal to
He tried to give me short cuts instead I ran out the scenic root
Aaron been thinking he's a know it all
But god a show em don't know at all so he gave me glass jaw
Was hit hard, learned lessons, and trained hard
Man I was ready for home this was base ball
I've been this long road
Man I swear to myself, what may glitter ain't gold
What I perceived as wealth was only these lies they told me sitting low at the shelf
Was the father who's knows me
And everything else, would of been sittin high beyond the god of all things
I use to run away when he called me
I use to run away he called me
Sometimes I try to run when we calls me
Man some days got me hatin life
Like skip it all I could die tonight
I could give a hoot on who doesn't like
I could care less about this christian life and do what I do when I do it when I take this pen write
But that ain't every day
Life still blessing bruh
I just thought for a second I'd telling what's up
Life is [?] but I ain't letting em up
I gotta murda myself and I been killing enough
I see a black and white world through my grey shades
But if you wanna see some color look at Christ frame
Hard ball with an odd ball
I've gotten buttons you can press but remember I am not a game
Lord I wanna change, so could you spare a little
I wanna grow to mature faith cause mines littles
Character grows only having the spirit in you
So lord reign in my life, I got root issues
Pass the baton, we running a new race
I'm the smaller joker determined to murder every spade
Secure through these nights and days like I'm blade
I wrestle with the lions like David I'm so blain
Swagger was an issue, I'm fight to become plain
So tired of sin trafficking Jesus brought out the plane
Transcendent over my sin so my hope was found in the king
So as long as I see a rainbow I guess I'm ready for rain
You can call me the new guy, you don't need a name
I'm worthy have to my shoes tied
I'm doing something old but rocking a whole new pride
Proud to be humbled by brothers with bigger shoe sizes
I'm on a new kinda
Feeling I'm feeling filled with the filling of the spirit this confidence given ain't arrogance its just how I'm feeling
Bold enough to quit trying to be a hero
Only god saves for change I'm only zero
Kiddo I can rest, the son is seen as the pillow
I tried playing the background but ended up in the middle kiddo
Holla back to the old canon I'm 10 4
You seen what's in inside but that was through a window
This is my time I'm a
Spit my heart and my soul
If I don't sell remember what may glitter ain't gold
I've given everything I've gotten what more could I hold
If this ain't sick enough don't trip this ain't even a cold

And this a mind vomit
To the father above gotta pay homage
I know I'm crazy at least I'm honest
If I ain't gave you the truth by now then I ain't got it

Welcome to the mind

If I had a house this is my house