Never Wanted To Be That Girl

(album: 29: Written In Stone - 2021)

He helped me change a tire
In a Citgo parking lot
He said we both could use a beer
And I said, "Hell, why not"
What started out as one night
Turned to six months just like that
He never had a ring on
So I never thought to ask

But then last night I saw a message on his phone
It said, "Hey, babe, what time you coming home?"

I never wanted to be that girl
I never wanted to hate myself
I thought this kind of lonely
Only happens to somebody else
Being the other one when there's another one
God, this feels like hell
I thought I knew who I was
But it's getting hard to tell
I never wanted to be that girl

I've heard about those women
Who didn't have a clue
The ones who made excuses
Like my mama used to do
And he jumps in the shower
Just as soon as he gets home
And I'll spend half an hour
Going through his phone

I never wanted to be that girl
I never wanted to hate myself
I thought this kind of lonely
Only happens to somebody else
Being the other one when there's another one
God, this feels like hell
I thought I knew who I was
But it's getting hard to tell
I never wanted to be that girl

Oh, and I feel stupid
I feel cheap
I feel used
I feel weak

I never wanted to be that girl
I never wanted to hate myself
I thought this kind of lonely
Only happens to somebody else
Being the other one when there's another one
God, this feels like hell
I thought I knew who I was
But it's getting hard to tell
I never wanted to be that girl
I never wanted to be that girl
I never wanted to be that girl