When I'm Gone

(album: Black Sheep - 2014)

I been thinkin bout it all the time
When I'm gone will they mourn me?
When I'm gone will they mourn me?
I think about it all the time
When I'm gone will they mourn me?

Man I been thinking bout my pops back in '89
Like how you work two jobs and say he fine
Knowing damn well he moving coke on the side
Countin bags and hopin he thrive
I feel it so deep inside
The pain of bearing a child and it ain't like nobody dies
So you copping extra guns, walking with army knives
Thoughts of losing her and you can't look in her mommy eyes
Three bodies hit my house tried raping my momma
They high off angel dust
You ran to the crib, did what an angel must
Popped the shotgun in their chest, my city dangerous
But we didn't worry because you came with us
16 years of survival you was my idol
Now I'm on bridges and standing idle
In a world full of minor disputes over the title and
I just want our connection back that was vital
You ain't ever seen no grown man cry
Until he start reflecting back on Christmas time
When you and Amanda came back from the truck
And ya'll was sniffing lines
It fuck with me knowing that you ain't shit sometimes!
And everybody carry demons
You was suppose to be the God who brought faith to the odds now we just even
And I'm inside my room grieving
Some of your actions got me questioning everything I believe in
Wheres God when you need him?

I spent so many years of my life as a child out here calling for meaning
And you ain't ever pick up the calls or receive 'em and
I'm struggling with all I'm believing in
When I'm gone will they mourn me?
I think about it all the time
When I'm gone will they mourn me?